have I not felt this all along?
this struggle
this daily knowledge that as many plans as I have
ultimately
I have no control
thank goodness Fitzgerald knew this too
I feel he just knows things
as I sit and read his thoughts
I think, "Yes! I resonate with this!"
tell me more
if only we could sit and share a cup of coffee together
and talk about this life
this life of struggle
then,
then, comfort's voice reaches me
reminds me:
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." -Proverbs 16:9
this means
I don't have to find the means to control my life
(and what a relief that is)
I can have a reassurance that
plans have already been made for me
by a God that loves me
by a God that created me
and knows all the intricacies of how my mind works and worries
how my mind tears everything apart
and tries to put it back together my OWN way
He already knows my struggle with this life
does this not shed new light?
new hope!
as bleak as Fitzgerald found things to be at times
the way he saw life may only have been partially true
if only we could sit and share a cup of coffee together
and talk about this life
this life of struggle
I think we would have talked about Jesus too...
